| Location | Dublin Ireland |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 8/2006 |
| Date of Death | 8/2006 |
| Visitors | 7,343 since 01/10/2006 |
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My name is Dina , Niall and I had decided what our future was to be we where buying a house and I
fell pregnant and we where so excited we had a few disapproving words as we are not married but we
didn't care, I hated being pregnant but how I miss it now, I was sick from day 1, very bad back
pain couldn't walk some days , and like everyone's 1st pregnancy I didn't know what
came next was this pain labour was this normal , I had everyone's head done in with all my
questions and panic attacks,besides all that I had a healthy pregnancy,Niall wanted a boy I
didn't mind but he wished and wished he reckoned all little girls need a older brother for
protection. which I found funny he has 4 older sisters and he is the eldest boy.
I was due 10th august 2006 and counted the hours I felt so fat and I was in extreme pain with
pressure on my pelvic bone . I cried and cried all I wanted was my body back I felt really selfish
but didn't care I finally went into labour 8.45 PM left the house texting all on the way, 45
min later telling them the doctors couldn't find a heart beat,we were in shock I suppose. I
rang mam and his mother as cam and told them the news,
I asked the nurses could I have a c section and I was told no , I couldn't believe it I though
that is disgraceful you should have some consideration and not make me go ahead with the labour but
no I remember thinking I have a dead thing in me get it out. now I feel terrible that I could think
such a thing but I was in shock ,it still doesn't ease that guilt. I finally gave birth at 8.10
am to William 8lb 8oz and 57 cm long he was huge I couldn't bring myself to look at him or hold
him I was hurting so much and I felt so bad for my Niall all I could see was his pain and tears I
kept apologising how bad of a person was I couldn't protect my baby iv let everyone down. the
next day I finally could look at him and touch him we had a naming mass for him it was lovely, but I
still couldn't hold him but this time it was because I new I would never let him go. I do think
what kind of person am I not being able to hold my child but I know he forgives me. Its still very
early days for me the pain is getting worse and my poor Niall is trying to be so strong but I can
see his pain is just as bad as mine.
Name - William means protector
Star Sign - Leo the lion playfull,stuburn,charming
Birthstone -Peridot
On the 4th December 2006 I miscarried our 2nd child who we nick named our little bean. I was 10
weeks gone, This is another devastating loss for us but once again Niall is my rock.
On the 5th Of April 2008 I misscarried our 3rd child our little bambeano , I was 5 weeks gone
devastated, It was another kick in the teeth while down it is amazing from the work positive how you
plan the rest of your life andf to have your dreams taken away for a 3rd time is hard to accept.
I have wrote a little poem.
Our three little angles, so loved so wanted so terribly missed
Everyday a wish is wished your names are spoken a tear is cried
Our beautiful little baby’s we long to have you near .
Until that day our two little angles will wish to have you near
The world will know your names and that you did exist and we will all shed a tear and a smile for
our two beautiful little angles who almost made it here
This pome was wrote for us from william by andy
To Mammy and Daddy,
How great it was to be loved,
I thought as I swam within you,
All the times your hands caressed me,
And I listened to you both coo,
I felt your warmth and tenderness,
As I kicked and bashed at you,
I herd you laugh wholeheartedly,
As you talked the whole night through,
The time we spent together ,
Was short,
I felt it too ,
But rest assured my mum and dad,
Your love for me came through,
That’s why Ill never leave you,
Our thoughts will be as one,
Although my body leaves this earth,
Ill always be your son,
So mum and dad,
This is not goodbye,
But just a fond adieu ,
Do not cry with sadness ,
But remember my time with you,
Hold on to the love,
We shared together,
And God will see you through
Dina,
I have no words to ease your pain but no doubt that William is watching over his brave Mum and Dad and surrounding you with lots of kisses and thankful that he is yours even if he was only with you for a short while.
Wishing you happiness xx
Dina I'm so sorry for what you have gone through. My heart breaks reading your story you are a very strong woman to talk so openly about this.
Deepest condolences
I am so sorry for your loss - it is truly a horrendous and heartbreaking thing to happen to any family. My thoughts are with you and yours.
Little William is a beautiful child, may the Lord protect his little soul.
Josie
I am deeply sorry xxxxxxxxxx
I am so very sorry for the loss of your darling angel William. My daughter Amy was born sleeping and I know exactly what thoughts and emotions you go through when you are told that your precious baby has died in your womb. Still to this day I blame myself because I was Amy's Mummy and I should have protected her from any harm. I remember one day I was sitting in a cafe having a drink and Amy was moving around like mad but Amy was my first child and I did not know what to expect in my pregnancy. I now know that the cord must have been strangling Amy and I did not know. I feel really guilty that as Amy's mummy I should have known what was happening to my darling daughter. I wish that I could turn the clock back so that things could have turned out different as all of the precious angels parents do.
It is a massive shock when you hear that your baby has died so all of the feelings and thoughts which you had you did not mean you was in total shock. Beautiful William knows how much his mummy, daddy and family love him. Little angel stay close to your loving family as they are missing you so very much. Let your star shine bright at night so that your loving family can see you. Play happily in god's garden with my angel Amy and all of the most precious angels in heaven. My love and thoughts are with you all. Sleeptight handsome William you truly are a little sweetheart. God bless angel, rest in peace. Sleep peacefully in the clouds with all our little angel babies. Lots of love to you all Dawn xxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you
Dina, I just want to thank you for sharing such a emotional time in your life with me. I can't imagine what you are going through and it certainly puts a lot of things into perspective. Just know that I am here for you if you ever need to talk or cry Take care hon.. xx Pip xx
My thoughts are with you,
Hi Dina, God bless you and baby William, he is in a much happier place. I lost my little brother Benjamin the same way in August and i just kept asking why our family. To have no explanation for this kind of thing drives me mad. It is so unfair. Reading your story had me in tears, you are such a strong person and i wish you so much happiness for the future.
Love from Sarah.
In the arms of the angels
Dina, I just wanted to say I'm so sorry. We also lost our little angel this year though we never got to see him.
I hope you feel better with each passing day. Time doesn't heal it just helps us deal.
Take care of each other and God Bless.
Julie.
xxxx
May this beautiful angel rest in peace
I just wanted to say I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. We will be thinking of you and yours. William and you all will be in our prayers. God bless you and we're always here if you need us
Dina, reading your story is like reading a chapter of my life.
I feel so much guilt over stupid stuff, Like not dressing Callum in a little suit i had bought him, He was so small it would have wrapped around him 3 or 4 times, his skin was delicate, and crazy as it sounds, i didnt want to hurt him anymore. We gently wrapped him in a beautiful blue blanket. Thankyou for your words of advise
William and Callum were born so close together, im sure they are having a ball together.
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